It’s time to emerge from the rabbit hole.
12 posts. 5,324 words. Thousands of views. Hundreds of comments. I’ve been telling Eric’s Story for only a week, and already so much progress has been made. But friends, I’m exhausted. Mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually exhausted.
I’ve descended into the proverbial rabbit hole, consumed by the creative process. My natural tendency is to dig deeper, stay longer, until I have to be retrieved after collapsing in the depths. But this time it’s going to be different. I will only write when the words well up inside me and spill out like water over a flooded dam when my fingers hit the keyboard. When it starts to feel like an obligation, it’s time to back away.
I’m taking a break, a momentary leave of absence from the exercise of soul baring. This story will still be told, but it won’t come at the expense of my health or my sanity. I’ve got two little girls who depend on me (and one big boy). I’ll be back, when I’m rested and ready. Until then, keep sharing Eric’s Story with those who need to hear it, and keep reaching out to me if you’ve been touched by it in some way.
Your encouragement, whether verbalized or silent, means so much to me. I live in an amazing community, both online and offline. As any runner will tell you, you’ve got to pace yourself if you want to finish the race. And finishing is what matters most to me.
I couldn’t believe you could power through all that heartbreak and write so much of it day after day. I’m good for one of those like this one
http://fracturedfamilytales.blogspot.com/2012/04/innocence-lost.html
and then I have to step WAY WAY back.
Cat I just want to tell you that you are an amazing person. You have brought a light into my life with a lot of things through your stories. I want to thank you for that!! So thank you Cat your doing a great job at getting the word out!!!
Hi Crystal- I’m so sorry I didn’t see this comment earlier. Your words mean so much to me. God is leading me through this process. I truly believe that. I sometimes don’t know why I’m doing what I’m doing, until I get messages like these. Take care and God bless!
When you do soul work, you must also do soul rest. Take care of yourself.
Good for you……your posts are raw and riveting and can’t-miss reading, but you have to take care of yourself — and your family. Eric wouldn’t want it any other way.
I’ve always known you were a powerful writer; I just didn’t know you had so much pain and heartache; so much courage; so much purpose. Writing your brother’s story is writing the story of so many more. Speaking truth out of your own experience, I believe, is God speaking through you, into you, working through you to heal you and others. I am praying for your strength and your comfort!